the opposite of love

… is not hate, it is indifference – Elie Wiesel.

A few days ago, D and I had a disagreement over… wedding favors. Really petty but I guess because we’ve been dealing with differences in our ideas and opinions since we started with the wedding preparations, the smallest of sparks can ignite the biggest of fires. He was  concerned about the budget. I was concerned about the budget, too and at the same time, lobbying my dream wedding.

And when I got tired of defending my ‘wants’, I feigned indifference, telling him that I’ll keep my hands off the wedding preparations and he should do all the planning instead. He can do whatever he wants with our wedding and I won’t care a bit.

Of course, as a bride, the thought of not being part of the preparations for my own wedding is like a stake piercing right through my heart. And as if to fan the flames, he took the dare and said he’ll take care of everything from then on.

So there I was, sulking the whole day, whining at wedding forums and bawling my heart at fellow brides who understand my sentiments. But sad as I was, I was prepared to keep my word. I was resolved to become indifferent.

Then we got to talked.

Finally, he asked me if I really want to be out of the planning. I said no, of course. I’d be the saddest bride if I don’t get to plan my own wedding. So he placed our wedding back in my hands, we hugged and fell in love all over again.

Wedding preparation is a very precarious stage to be in. So take heart and, as the saying goes, when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.